So this whole life experience is not as easy as I would like it to be. Its fun but not easy. I have had my patience and faith tried so many times its getting hard to keep it. I have faith that all will work out. Its just so hard to rely on faith when the world is kicking you in the shins.
As some of you know Brent and I have been trying to have a baby and it has proven harder than it looks. When you are growing up you really dont know that people have problems with this. All you see is pregnant women and hope that it is you when you get old enough. Its especially hard when your family members dont have much trouble having babies. That makes it really much more difficult to deal with than you would think.
I have had surgery to fix something that might have been causing us to have problems. That does not seem to be the case. What I had was a very mild case of endometriosis. Now that is has been taken care of it is supposed to be better. We were under the impression that it would fix everything, ok I was under that impression. But we are still experiencing set backs.
We are still trying but the emotional toll it takes month after month is not that easy for either of us to deal with. And when I went to the Dr. last he said that there was nothing else he could do for me and that I need to go see a specialist. Wow that kicked me in the head hard. I could not believe it. A specialist. He suggested that I ask the specialist for some treatments. These treatments he suggested are $10 to $15 THOUSAND dollars each. Just for a maybe. I'm thinking no.
Brent and I have been talking about adoption since we decided to have kids. We want a large family and never really thought it would be hard to start but we did not want to have all the kids. So we can start filling out our adoption papers through LDS social services in a few weeks and then we will see. We are still going to see the specialist if my insurance will pay for it but we really want to get started. I think maybe the Lord wants us to adopt first. Maybe there will be a baby out there that needs us and if we have a baby first we might miss out.
Today I have been quite happy which is a rarity for me. I seem to be emotionally unstable at all times. And this time of happiness I am trying to hold onto. It feels good to just be happy and try not to worry about life. Undoubtily there will be something that will change that for me but right now its nice to be genuinely happy.
Thank you all for your support and prayers. Keep it up it seems to be helping. :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
1.What color is your tooth brush? Blue and white
2. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Working with patient accounts
3. What is your favorite candy bar? Butterfinger right now
4. Have you ever been to a strip club? Lets think ummm NO
5. What is the last thing you said aloud? I forget I was laughing about something someone here at work said.
6. What is the best ice cream flavor? Sugar Cookie (its seasonal so I have to get it when it comes out which is usually Winter)
7. What is the last thing you had to drink? Water
8. What are you wearing right now? Jeans, long sleeved shirt, sweater, socks and shoes. (I'm at work what do you expect?)
9. What was the last thing you ate? A Hot Dog
10. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? Nope too poor :)
11. When was the last time you ran? I dont remember might be in high school like 8 years ago.
12. Who was the last person to send you a message/comment on your blog? Kasie
13. Do you rake vitamins daily? Yeah Prenatals (its supposed to help, we will see)
14. Do you go to church every Sunday? I have responsibilities so definately.
15. Do you have a tan? White as a ghost just like Kasie, I blind people
16. Do you like Chinese food over pizza? Definately! I get to have it on Friday to with Kasie! YUM YUM
17. Do you drink soda with a straw? Only when its a fountain drink
18. What does your last text message say? I only know my suffix to my checking either way as long as its fifty.
19. Are you someones best friend? Yes I am! I hope:)
20. What are you doing tomorrow? Going to work coming home and finishing up on some gifts.
21. Where is your dad? In Washington visiting his mom
22. Look to your left, what do you see? Charts to code
23. What color is your favorite pair of shoes? Brown
24. Do you use chap stick? YUP! or I would not have lips left.
25. Whats your favorite thing to do in your free time? Crocheting
26. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Depends on if we are in a hurry or not.
27. Do you have a dog? Yup 2 a dauchund and black lab mix and a beagle!
28. Last guy you talked on the phone with? Brent
29. Last girl you talked on the phone with? My mom
30. Any fun vacation plans soon? Going to go to Vegas in Jan.
31. Do you dye your hair? Not recently
32. Can you say the alphabet backwards? Not that I know of. Who needs that? lol
33. Do you have a maid service clean your house? Nope Brent is good enough and he's cheap!
34. Are you jealous of anyone? Not really
35. Do you love anyone? My eternal companion Brent (and our family of coarse.)
36. Do any of your friends have children? Yeah almost all of them.
37. Do you use the word Hello daily? Yeah
38. Do you like cats? Not really I am a dog person.
39. Have you ever been to six flags? Yup
40. How did you get your worse scar? Surgery! YUCK.
41. What is your favorite smell? Cookies
42. What is the last DVD you watched? Gilmore Girls season 4 disc 4
43. Have you ever been to Disney world? Nope
44. What is your favorite number? 16
45. Do you toast your pop tarts? Sometimes.
46. Have you ever waited tables? Not technically I worked in a pizza restaurant and brough people their pizza and cleaned up after them.
47. Where did you have your first kiss? Movie theather when I was 15
48. What should you be doing? Nothing right now I'm at lunch and ate earlier.
49. Do you enjoy wasting time blogging? Yeah I have to learn how to make it prettier.
50. Who do you want to tag? Angie and Melanie
2. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Working with patient accounts
3. What is your favorite candy bar? Butterfinger right now
4. Have you ever been to a strip club? Lets think ummm NO
5. What is the last thing you said aloud? I forget I was laughing about something someone here at work said.
6. What is the best ice cream flavor? Sugar Cookie (its seasonal so I have to get it when it comes out which is usually Winter)
7. What is the last thing you had to drink? Water
8. What are you wearing right now? Jeans, long sleeved shirt, sweater, socks and shoes. (I'm at work what do you expect?)
9. What was the last thing you ate? A Hot Dog
10. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? Nope too poor :)
11. When was the last time you ran? I dont remember might be in high school like 8 years ago.
12. Who was the last person to send you a message/comment on your blog? Kasie
13. Do you rake vitamins daily? Yeah Prenatals (its supposed to help, we will see)
14. Do you go to church every Sunday? I have responsibilities so definately.
15. Do you have a tan? White as a ghost just like Kasie, I blind people
16. Do you like Chinese food over pizza? Definately! I get to have it on Friday to with Kasie! YUM YUM
17. Do you drink soda with a straw? Only when its a fountain drink
18. What does your last text message say? I only know my suffix to my checking either way as long as its fifty.
19. Are you someones best friend? Yes I am! I hope:)
20. What are you doing tomorrow? Going to work coming home and finishing up on some gifts.
21. Where is your dad? In Washington visiting his mom
22. Look to your left, what do you see? Charts to code
23. What color is your favorite pair of shoes? Brown
24. Do you use chap stick? YUP! or I would not have lips left.
25. Whats your favorite thing to do in your free time? Crocheting
26. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Depends on if we are in a hurry or not.
27. Do you have a dog? Yup 2 a dauchund and black lab mix and a beagle!
28. Last guy you talked on the phone with? Brent
29. Last girl you talked on the phone with? My mom
30. Any fun vacation plans soon? Going to go to Vegas in Jan.
31. Do you dye your hair? Not recently
32. Can you say the alphabet backwards? Not that I know of. Who needs that? lol
33. Do you have a maid service clean your house? Nope Brent is good enough and he's cheap!
34. Are you jealous of anyone? Not really
35. Do you love anyone? My eternal companion Brent (and our family of coarse.)
36. Do any of your friends have children? Yeah almost all of them.
37. Do you use the word Hello daily? Yeah
38. Do you like cats? Not really I am a dog person.
39. Have you ever been to six flags? Yup
40. How did you get your worse scar? Surgery! YUCK.
41. What is your favorite smell? Cookies
42. What is the last DVD you watched? Gilmore Girls season 4 disc 4
43. Have you ever been to Disney world? Nope
44. What is your favorite number? 16
45. Do you toast your pop tarts? Sometimes.
46. Have you ever waited tables? Not technically I worked in a pizza restaurant and brough people their pizza and cleaned up after them.
47. Where did you have your first kiss? Movie theather when I was 15
48. What should you be doing? Nothing right now I'm at lunch and ate earlier.
49. Do you enjoy wasting time blogging? Yeah I have to learn how to make it prettier.
50. Who do you want to tag? Angie and Melanie
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Halloween and Games
We have had so much fun this weekend. We went to a Halloween party and the costumes were great. We played Family Feud and Rockband. It was great. We stayed out way too late and had so much fun. It was so hard to get up this morning. Then today we had Kasie and Scott over and ate some home made chicken noodle soup. Brent made it and it was great. Then we played dance dance and some monkey ball. We just had so much fun. It is great having people we can hang out with.
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