Everything is changing

Ok so as of July 10th 2009 life is not the same. I thought being pregnant was a big change but this is way different. I was following Brent home from getting his motorcycle from the shop on 395 north and out of nowhere a white van side swipes me. I totally freaked out! I mean a car accident is one thing but being 30 weeks pregnant and in a car accident is one of the worst things. I went to the ER and the Labor and Delivery. I was there for over 6 hours Friday then went back to Labor and Delivery Saturday for about 7 hours. I took that Monday and Tuesday off work. Then this last Sunday I went back to Labor and Delivery due to contractions and they put me on meds. I went to work yesterday and called the Dr. to see if its ok I go to California for my baby shower and was told that I was supposed to be home on modified bedrest and not at work and that I could not travel in my condition so my mom and sister are going to have to postpone the shower until after Newell is born. I was so upset but now I think I will be ok. I am just not happy about being on bedrest for 8 weeks. Yeah being put on bedrest from 32 weeks until he is born is not the highlight of my pregnancy. I dont want to have him early but then again I want to have him at 37 weeks cause then I will be able to do for myself earlier but for him and for his health I'll stay in bed for longer if it means he will be ok. I am so worried about him right now. I just dont know. The sonogram shows he is physically fine but what did the car accident do to his little brain? If it were not for the accident I would still be at work and not worrying about my baby and if he will be "normal" or not. This does not help with trying to relax and rest when I dont know if my son is totally ok. I am hoping and praying he will be. I also found out today that I need physical therapy for my back cause I am pregnant and they cannot medicate me. So on top of the additional OBGYN visits I will have PT visits too. Brent has to drive me everywhere since I am not supposed to drive either. I am used to being mostly independant. I mean I do depend on Brent for a lot of things and I dont like doing things by myself if its at all avoidable but going to the Dr. and things like that I can do. Not anymore. I am on the verge of being depressed and that's not good. I have had a pretty easy pregnancy up until the accident then it all seems to fall apart. Ugh. Brent is taking the rest of the week off work to help me out luckily he has vacation pay so he can do that but when he goes back to work its just me and the dogs and I can't even take them out to go potty. This is really gonna bug. Good news is it could have been worse.